I have been dreaming about creating a blog for about 13 years. I’ve struggled with so much fear during that time.
- Fear of what others would think of me
- Fear of being transparent
- Fear of change
- Fear of commitment
- Fear of achieving goals and dreams
So much FEAR
I grew up living a fearful life. My words were never heard, my feeling were discounted, and I was repeatedly told I would never be or do anything with my life.
Let me give you a little background before I continue. . My mom was a single mother, struggling to make ends meet. She married my stepfather, and it was an unstable, toxic childhood. I frequently felt like a doormat. I was shy, and never really spoke to anyone. I had zero social skills. It was hard to develop these skills when I constantly moved around… When I was in 4th grade, I remember I had gone to 13 different schools that year… 13!!!
Fast forward a few years…
I was encouraged to drop out of high school in the 10th grade. Encouraged to work and get my GED.
So, that’s what I did… except the GED part.
I worked 2 jobs, at $4.25 an hour. Moved out when I was 16.
I’ll save the juicy details of the next few years for a different blogpost
The point is, I didn’t let my past define me!
I put my big girl panties on, got my high school diploma when I was pregnant with my second child at 27 years old, went to nursing school, became an RN!
Coming from a family that didn’t put a value on education and having a healthy mindset with positive role models, I would say that I had every odd against me.
Today, I am raising 3 awesome boys
I have a FORMAL education and a career that I’m so passionate about, and I am the strongest, mentally than I’ve ever been in my life! I have so much pride in how far I’ve come and I have faith in how far I can go.
This blog will go into my life, my experiences, how I have overcome so many of the obstacles that life has thrown at me.. I hope to inspire other women to help them achieve thier goals, not let mindfucks let them get stuck, help others to DIG DEEP and find themselves. It’s taken me 36 years of life’s craziness to overcome having a destructive mindset. I will never again live in fear! Sometimes all you need is that one person to whisper in your ear, “You got this!”. If you feel paralyzed with fear or you feel like you’ve lost yourself along life twisty turns, reach out to me… XOXO